I’m starving.

My name is Karelin, and I’m starving.

If I really admit it, I must say that spiritually, I’m hungry. I know there is more to be had in God, and I want it.  It seems that the things that used to satisfy are no longer enough. Can you relate? If you examine your spiritual walk, would you say that there is a general feeling of spiritual lack?

In Matthew 5:6, Jesus says, “Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be filled.” It doesn’t feel like a blessed place to be. I didn’t come to admit this easily. I have spent way too long, trying to cover up my hunger, pretending that I am full. There was a feeling that if I admitted my hunger, I would be letting people down, I wouldn’t be a good example. I’ve come to realize that that was a lie. True humility is being honest about this walk of faith. If Jesus is calling hunger and thirst blessed, why was I acting like I was satisfied. Who was I trying to impress?

So I’ve given that up.  I am starving.  It’s not that Jesus doesn’t satisfy, He does. But like the manna that was provided by God in the wilderness, it is only good for today. Each day, the provision needed to be collected. I’m starving if I am expecting yesterday’s bread to feed me today. Each day has it’s own provision. Each day I come to the Lord to be filled. Each day, that “bread” might look like something entirely new.

So what am I hungry for? Righteousness. Righteousness in myself, in others, and in the world where I have influence. I want to see a harvest of souls through Prayerful Breath Yoga. I have one message: Deeper intimacy with Jesus. I’ll share it anywhere I am able – inside and outside the church.

One thing I know for sure, if the hungry insist that they are full, there will be no provision of bread. If the thirsty pretend they are satisfied, there will be no downpour of water. It is the barren that miraculously conceive. If your heart breaks for the lost, will you join with me? Let our “prayerful breath” plead for the lost of our community, and for revival in the Church. Prayer is the place to start.